Yesterday, we spent 9 hours outside working in the yard, enjoying the beautiful weather, and playing. It was an energizing day!
At one point during the morning, I found myself really frustrated. Chris and I were finishing the last raised bed, and Brady was into everything. He wanted to hammer. He wanted to rake. He wanted to dig in the dirt. He kept picking up our tools in order to “help”. I found myself losing my patience with this quicker than normal.
I finally stopped a minute, walked away, and asked myself, “Why am I so frustrated right now?” The answer was simple for me. As a mom, to get anything done, I must manage not only the project in front of me, but I must always manage two little children. Even on the rare occasions that I do something without the kids, I am always having to think about who will have my kids so I can get my haircut, write, or go to the doctor. Yesterday, I simply wanted to work on a project without interruptions and without having to engage a child in the project.
As I took a “mommy time-out” briefly, I realized that my frustration had nothing really to do with Brady, but rather with me. Brady just wanted to be involved and to be included. Nothing wrong with that- I want to be involved and included also. The problem was I had gotten into my “task-master” mode. I wanted to get the flower beds done quickly so we could play. In reality, Brady wanted to be with us and work with us. It was his way of playing with us. He wanted time with us.
While this is a hard lesson for me to learn, I have to remind myself as a mom to a toddler and 10 month old that things take a bit longer to get done. I have to remind myself that I can take an opportunity like yesterday morning and turn it into a shared parent-child moment of teaching, laughing, and playing. I will eventually finish the project, and I will build a relationship also with my son also.
While I still wish for days that I can knock things off my to do list quickly, I pray that I will not become such a “task-master” that I miss an opportunity to build a relationship with the person I am working with.
When do I become so goal driven that I overlook the people I am working with?
When am I called to slow down and share my time and my talents with others?