There is a part in the story when Calla Lily is talking to her friend Ricky. Calla Lily has just experienced a great loss in her life (I will not divulge what it is!), and she has been grieving and depressed over her loss for a year at this point, until one morning she has breakfast with Ricky and the following occurs:
“Good, good,” he said, smiling. “It’s been a while now.”
This passage struck me when I read it, and I have not been able to get it out of my head all week. Seventeen months ago, I moved from my hometown of 28 years to a new city. It has been quite a year of transition. There were so many little “losses” to experience, and I grieved the loss of familiarity in terms of family, friends, Louisiana culture, and knowledge of a city, and on and on.
Suddenly though, I began to “feel different”. I began to accept where I lived. I began to enjoy and experience the new city I. I began to “see the trees again”, and “something widened in me”. I realized that my heart was big enough for both places—my home and roots of 28 years, and all the people and places and experiences I loved back home, and also this new, amazing city that is full of warm and interesting people, incredible food, and a totally different culture that combines college city with a country feel!
I feel so many family and friends I know right now are also in big transition in their lives- new marriages, new cities, changing relationships, changing jobs, new children. With all of this change there will be a period of mourning over our “losses”, but I know, that we will all get to that point where our heart has “widened” enough to “take all this”.
Do you feel a widening in your life anywhere?